+Will I be a good mom? Will I be able to step up to the plate and protect, love and care for this little girl in a way that I will be proud of? Will I be motivated enough to loose the 20lb's I've put on? Will I be able to push her out naturally? Will a C-section hurt really bad afterword's? Will I be organized and prepared, or fly by the seat of my pants most of the time? Will I become a hermit and stay inside the house for 2 months before I go back to work? Will I be ready to go back to work? Will Moose be kind and gentle with her because he's a maniac now? All questions that no one can answer except my reality once she's here.
+I've been trying to read up on labor and Braxton hicks and signs of labor but I know nothing will prepare you and you just have to do it. Although I have been reading a lot about postpartum and making sure I'm reading a lot about after the baby is here. I know that everyone talks about the delivery but no one talks about once the baby is here which can throw people off. I can't wait to just hold her and put her face right one mine so I can breathe her in!....too much? hahaha
+I think Eric is excited for sure but I think once she's here it's going to be a man to man team. Eric will man Moose and I will man the baby. I know he will help with the baby whenever I need it but since Moose is almost 5 and still super hyper and wants to play a lot I'll need Eric to help burn off that energy because the baby is not a toy!
+Packing the hospital bag is a challenge. I can't put the stuff I'm wearing in there now because I'm wearing it! I don't want to go out and buy a bunch of stuff just to put in the bag so its ready whenever. I know there's a few items I could put in it like leggings and tank tops, but right now I'm living off of my dresses and maternity pants soooooo I can't give those up for 6 weeks! I'm sure I'll end up buying some stuff but I guess I'm just putting it off because I know once I pack it.....she's coming!
+After having two showers I feel extremely blessed by all the love and support from friends and family. We have so much stuff as we prepare to become new parents its hard to find a place for it all to go!
+I can't believe next weekend is 4th of July! Where did June go? Our stay-cation/baby moon is going to be here and gone before we know it.
+People at work have bothered me for years, the way someone laughs as loud and hard as they possible can as if they just heard the funniest thing in their entire life, the way they someone sounds like a roaring elephant when they blow their nose 2 feet away from you, or when they think they are whispering but they are just talking with a hiss, lastly when someone on the opposite side of the room clears their throat every 5-10 seconds as loud as possible that you can hear them on the OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE ROOM! you know little things like that...well they are amplified times 100 when I'm pregnant! Talk about learning patience! I literally have none at this point for anyone, when shopping, when driving, at the office, anywhere! God help me!
Thank you for sticking around to read all of my crazy thoughts today!